一年又一年， 我们大了一岁又一岁，满满的， 我们从一个baby,变成了现在的我们。。
回想起，以前小的时候，那种天真活泼的性格， 那种单纯无恶意的思想， 比起现在的我， 真的是天与地的分别了。。。
以前， 我总是喜欢跟妈妈出去巴沙买菜，一大清早， 7点8点就起身冲凉，然后就喝妈妈泡的一杯Milo，就跟着妈妈的车去买菜了。。在路途中，还跟妈妈有说有笑的。。。。
可是现在， 我却睡到下午都还没醒，也没喝妈妈泡的Milo了， 菜，也自己会煮了。。。 没有跟妈妈买菜，甚至，话也少说了。。。有时，在外面逛街，或者读书做工时，妈妈打电话来，聊的时间也真的很短，都不到2/3分钟。。。
以前，总是喜欢在家等待爸爸放工回家。。。 偶尔，放假都会跟爸爸去工厂帮帮忙， 虽然不是帮的什么忙。。。
爸爸总是在那里教了我很多道理，知识等。。。 虽然我爸爸他没读什么大学，但是，我觉得他的人生经验，是我无法能领会到的。。。
还有， 我爸他是英校的，所以以前他总会教我英文。。。 上了中一，他每天晚上都载我去Station 18 那里补习。。。有时候，晚上下起了雨，天气冷得都发抖， 我和爸爸冒着雨还是坐着摩托回家。。。 如果不是这样，我看今天的我， 也是看到英文好像看到鸡肠一样。。。
可是，大了，我有时会顶撞爸爸，以为自己做的是对的， 但是爸爸他没怪我， 他那默默的眼神，一点都没生气。。。
应该是说，我爸爸脾气比较好，我20多年来，他发脾气的次数，可以用一个手数完。。。。
说了家里，说说学校吧。。。
小学的时候，总是喜欢帮老师忙，看到老师都说声早安。。可是大了，连看到老师也装傻看不到，别说帮忙了。。
小学的时候，所有的朋友都喜欢玩，橡胶擦，追追，游戏卡等等。。。甚至，以前还抓蜘蛛，蚂蚁和草蜢来玩。。。
想起那时候，真的还蛮好笑的。。。。 大家都没有私心的和大家一起玩。。。。
毕业后的我们， 还真的蛮可悲的。。。
有时侯，就算突然接到电话， 还真的不是那么开心， 以为朋友约出来，不是为了相聚，是为了要你跟他买什么产品/保单等等。。。
有时候， 我们在人在背后讲人坏话，人家生活比我们好，我们会妒忌人家。。。
有时候，收到了一些朋友的短讯，还真的忙到没看到或者看了也不当一回事。。。。
有时候，还把朋友的丑事拿来开玩笑，忽略了别人的感受。。。
自己改变的，实在数也数不清。。。。 自己忽略的，也已经不能挽回。。。
怎么办呀。。。 没办法。。。
环境，自然的在把我改变了。。。
社会，也把我塑造成另一个人了。。。。
不过，这些也是成长必经的路程，必须付出的代价。。。
Monday, May 16, 2011
Thursday, May 12, 2011
Our earth and Ourselves
Recently we always complain about the weather , god damm hot, freaking hot, fucking hot and bla bla bla hot hot hot ...
But, do we know that its all cause by ours ?
Still remember King Of Pop Michael Jackson ??
Still remember this song ?
What have we done to the world?
Look what we've done.
What about all the peace,
That you pledge your only son?
What about flowering fields?
Is there a time?
What about all the dreams,
That you said was yours and mine?
Look what've we done to the world ...
Gas emmision ...
CFC from our air-con and refridge , the more hot , we open more...
plastic....
nuclear ...
LOOK WHAT'VE DONE ?? TAKE A LOOK AT OURSELVES.. LOOK AT THE THINGS THAT WE'VE DONE TO KILLING THE EARTH SLOWLY...
As we kill the earth slowly, the earth is killing we at the same time...
Look , earthquake, tsunami, tornado , etc... It's warning letter from the earth ...
Do we get it ?? Nope... I dont think so ...
Mothernature , we, human cant fight it...
God, we also cant fight it...
U see japan , building can resists earthquake of 7 magnitude.. But God wont give Japan a 7 , HE give a 9.. and That's more than enough... Look at the destruction...
So , Wake up lar Human.. (include me )
But, do we know that its all cause by ours ?
Still remember King Of Pop Michael Jackson ??
Still remember this song ?
What have we done to the world?
Look what we've done.
What about all the peace,
That you pledge your only son?
What about flowering fields?
Is there a time?
What about all the dreams,
That you said was yours and mine?
Look what've we done to the world ...
Gas emmision ...
CFC from our air-con and refridge , the more hot , we open more...
plastic....
nuclear ...
LOOK WHAT'VE DONE ?? TAKE A LOOK AT OURSELVES.. LOOK AT THE THINGS THAT WE'VE DONE TO KILLING THE EARTH SLOWLY...
As we kill the earth slowly, the earth is killing we at the same time...
Look , earthquake, tsunami, tornado , etc... It's warning letter from the earth ...
Do we get it ?? Nope... I dont think so ...
Mothernature , we, human cant fight it...
God, we also cant fight it...
U see japan , building can resists earthquake of 7 magnitude.. But God wont give Japan a 7 , HE give a 9.. and That's more than enough... Look at the destruction...
So , Wake up lar Human.. (include me )
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
小的时候 VS 长大之后
小的时候， 我们在学校写作文 《 我的志愿》 ， 我们都写 长大之后， 要当个大医生，大律师，太空人 等等。。。
长大之后， 我们在面子书写， 《我的工作》 ， 今天很累， 要换工，工钱太低，忙到要死，等等。。。
小的时候，我们讲要好好读书，以后赚很多钱， 长大了可以给父母亲住大屋子，坐大汽车。。。
长大之后， 我们天天做牛做马， 月头拿工钱，月中裤头紧， 三餐没温饱， 连父母亲也忘了。。。
小的时候， 我们看到爸妈买4D ，讲他们浪费钱去买，不如买些更实际的东西。。。
长大之后，我们自己去买4D ,知道4D是买个希望， 中了就生活不用那么辛苦。。。
小的时候， 看到爸妈驾车粗口连出， 将爸妈很没有道德。。。
长大之后， 自己驾车粗口更够力， 把别人十八代祖宗都骂出来。。。
小的时候， 老师讲到男女课题， 我们都会很害羞。。。
长大之后， 我们无时无刻就讲性经， 和朋友看色情短片。。。
小的时候，我们不会讲人是非，最多只是吵吵架。。。
长大之后，我们常在人家背后讲坏话，把关系搞得一团乱。。。
小的时候， 在学校发白日梦， 想快点长大，出来工作很自由。。
长大之后，在公司发白日梦，想起当年在学校，是那么的无忧无虑， 很疯狂的少年， 可是， 那已经是遥不可及了， 只是能成为回忆， 不能在回去了。。。。。。。 一切 ， 都因为我们长大了。。。。
长大之后， 我们在面子书写， 《我的工作》 ， 今天很累， 要换工，工钱太低，忙到要死，等等。。。
小的时候，我们讲要好好读书，以后赚很多钱， 长大了可以给父母亲住大屋子，坐大汽车。。。
长大之后， 我们天天做牛做马， 月头拿工钱，月中裤头紧， 三餐没温饱， 连父母亲也忘了。。。
小的时候， 我们看到爸妈买4D ，讲他们浪费钱去买，不如买些更实际的东西。。。
长大之后，我们自己去买4D ,知道4D是买个希望， 中了就生活不用那么辛苦。。。
小的时候， 看到爸妈驾车粗口连出， 将爸妈很没有道德。。。
长大之后， 自己驾车粗口更够力， 把别人十八代祖宗都骂出来。。。
小的时候， 老师讲到男女课题， 我们都会很害羞。。。
长大之后， 我们无时无刻就讲性经， 和朋友看色情短片。。。
小的时候，我们不会讲人是非，最多只是吵吵架。。。
长大之后，我们常在人家背后讲坏话，把关系搞得一团乱。。。
小的时候， 在学校发白日梦， 想快点长大，出来工作很自由。。
长大之后，在公司发白日梦，想起当年在学校，是那么的无忧无虑， 很疯狂的少年， 可是， 那已经是遥不可及了， 只是能成为回忆， 不能在回去了。。。。。。。 一切 ， 都因为我们长大了。。。。
Thursday, May 5, 2011
Little Footstep Little Story Of The Day #4
05/05/2011 HOT DAY !!!
Today so tired dota with max, play with AI a.k.a Alternative Inteligent = = ""
The last round really making fun, I use Myself ( Centaur warchief ) KILL really 99 ... syok syok ^^ then dota till 7 am only sleep = =
And i wake up at 11 am , go out to max living room, his aunty was open a buddha CD , and i listen to what the 法师 and Max ' aunty said... Really 觉悟 and learn something about our life.. 种善恩， 得善果； 种恶业， 得恶果。。。 如果一个人， 连这句话都没听过， 真的是枉费在人间走一朝。。。
After that , when i take komuter from KLS to Serdang , this thing really happen to me ...
I was wearing earphone listen to music , and i get into the train as the train arrive , and i find place to sit , since got a few seats available...
After that , the guys beside me stand up , and give his seat to an old woman ...
And I saw there's another 2 old man with the woman...
I was pretty Stoked for a momment , i was thinking to myself " Hey , Chan Weng , get up, their are old man, they need to sit more than you" ... And after 10 sec like that only i stand up , and i let them sit...
And I was Kinda Touching , and happy when the old man said " leng zai , thank you " ... OMG ... But the same time, I was guilty because i should have let them sit when i saw them and the guy let the old woman sit ...
No matter what, My heart really feel kinda open and 开朗， after help people , maybe That what's the buddha talk "日行一善“ 吧。。。
- Stephen -
Today so tired dota with max, play with AI a.k.a Alternative Inteligent = = ""
The last round really making fun, I use Myself ( Centaur warchief ) KILL really 99 ... syok syok ^^ then dota till 7 am only sleep = =
And i wake up at 11 am , go out to max living room, his aunty was open a buddha CD , and i listen to what the 法师 and Max ' aunty said... Really 觉悟 and learn something about our life.. 种善恩， 得善果； 种恶业， 得恶果。。。 如果一个人， 连这句话都没听过， 真的是枉费在人间走一朝。。。
After that , when i take komuter from KLS to Serdang , this thing really happen to me ...
I was wearing earphone listen to music , and i get into the train as the train arrive , and i find place to sit , since got a few seats available...
After that , the guys beside me stand up , and give his seat to an old woman ...
And I saw there's another 2 old man with the woman...
I was pretty Stoked for a momment , i was thinking to myself " Hey , Chan Weng , get up, their are old man, they need to sit more than you" ... And after 10 sec like that only i stand up , and i let them sit...
And I was Kinda Touching , and happy when the old man said " leng zai , thank you " ... OMG ... But the same time, I was guilty because i should have let them sit when i saw them and the guy let the old woman sit ...
No matter what, My heart really feel kinda open and 开朗， after help people , maybe That what's the buddha talk "日行一善“ 吧。。。
- Stephen -
Little Footstep Little Story Of The Day #3
04/05/2011 Shine
Today go hang out with my friend Max Chin and his little brother Lucas Chin ... We hang out at sg wang , low yat , lepak at some camera outlet , asking for the market price of Canon 60 D .... Wow... It's costy for me.. But Max said he want to buy it ><"" Even his little brother agree with me opinion that , a normal camera should be enough ... Mode easy set... haha.. no need many button ><"" Then at Time Square , got 70 % offer for branded sales... And I bought a POLO white shirt for myself , which i will be wearing when my college life start later.. Max buy himself 3 pair of underwear , and Belt ^^ haha.. He buy XL size.. Afterall when go back he try, got a bit loose >< ""
At this night , Hang out with Max , Marcus , Lucas and Marcus"s gf... Go for yum cha at mamak stall , and then Pool ... Damm... This day my pool skill went so suck , erm.. i mean all of us... May be is the table got " HANTU " gua...
Today go hang out with my friend Max Chin and his little brother Lucas Chin ... We hang out at sg wang , low yat , lepak at some camera outlet , asking for the market price of Canon 60 D .... Wow... It's costy for me.. But Max said he want to buy it ><"" Even his little brother agree with me opinion that , a normal camera should be enough ... Mode easy set... haha.. no need many button ><"" Then at Time Square , got 70 % offer for branded sales... And I bought a POLO white shirt for myself , which i will be wearing when my college life start later.. Max buy himself 3 pair of underwear , and Belt ^^ haha.. He buy XL size.. Afterall when go back he try, got a bit loose >< ""
At this night , Hang out with Max , Marcus , Lucas and Marcus"s gf... Go for yum cha at mamak stall , and then Pool ... Damm... This day my pool skill went so suck , erm.. i mean all of us... May be is the table got " HANTU " gua...
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
Little Footstep Little Story Of The Day #2
2011/05/03 Rainy
Today wake up quite late , cause the rainy day, make me like sticking to the bed, just dont want to wake up even though its 11am ... yawn @.@
Then i go out, watch newspaper, and i saw this article, which i use to saw it quite few years ago, through sms that my friend send it to me... It sounds like this :
出生一张纸，开始一辈子； 毕业一张纸，奋斗一辈子。
金钱一张纸，辛苦一辈子； 荣誉一张纸，虚名一辈子。
看病一张纸，痛苦一辈子； 悼词一张纸，了解一辈子。
谈化这些纸，明白一辈子； 忘了这些纸，快乐一辈子。
Damm... Really meaningful to me now... I'm going to further my study... And it's really making me too EMO ><""' Everytime I think about it, It seems like it Making Me HARD to breathe , and everything around me seems very dark , And i cant see everything, And My surrounding is also being TOO QUITE, I can only hear my breathing sound .... Argh !! It's killing me ... I really Hate this feeling everynight... Gonna Make me insomia @.@
But No matter what, As i said to people , when ppl are emo also... Now , i Said it to MYSELF " No matter what, Life still have to go on, So , Move On " ...
-Stephen-
Today wake up quite late , cause the rainy day, make me like sticking to the bed, just dont want to wake up even though its 11am ... yawn @.@
Then i go out, watch newspaper, and i saw this article, which i use to saw it quite few years ago, through sms that my friend send it to me... It sounds like this :
出生一张纸，开始一辈子； 毕业一张纸，奋斗一辈子。
金钱一张纸，辛苦一辈子； 荣誉一张纸，虚名一辈子。
看病一张纸，痛苦一辈子； 悼词一张纸，了解一辈子。
谈化这些纸，明白一辈子； 忘了这些纸，快乐一辈子。
Damm... Really meaningful to me now... I'm going to further my study... And it's really making me too EMO ><""' Everytime I think about it, It seems like it Making Me HARD to breathe , and everything around me seems very dark , And i cant see everything, And My surrounding is also being TOO QUITE, I can only hear my breathing sound .... Argh !! It's killing me ... I really Hate this feeling everynight... Gonna Make me insomia @.@
But No matter what, As i said to people , when ppl are emo also... Now , i Said it to MYSELF " No matter what, Life still have to go on, So , Move On " ...
-Stephen-
Sunday, May 1, 2011
Little Footstep Little Story Of The Day #1
2011/05/01 Rainy
Guess what... I think I'm gonna start something like a dairy on this blog.... But not updated it everyday, just gonna write down something that happen to me on a certain day, so that when i got time , i review back my blog, I can still flash back to my memory of the day ... You know , our life is just too short , short enough , that perhaps 60 years, just gone like a blink of eyes...
Many of us didnt realize, that we're missing a lot of our memories...
Today, I took the train to work as usual, and I saw a little boy, sleeping on his father tight , inside the train , and his father is taking care of him... so Nice the moment, that little boy just sit so tight , because he know that his father will protect him , and lying in his father tight is so comfort ... And I tried to flash back to find back some memories of when these thing are happening to me... But I cant ... That because I have grown up now... These things are only happen to me , about 10 ++ years ago.... that time , my father would hug me though the crowd, let me sleep on his arm / tight , and he will hold me up , when I was not tall enough to catch a show where too many people are blocking me ..
I think everyone of us deserved a time / moment to flash back to our life time, but yet... we cant flash back through it all... That why yesterday , i chat with a girl on my facebook, person like to take photo , doesnt mean that the person is 自恋。。。。 It just , you know, photo cant bring you back to the moment , but it can let you flash back what u are doing in that moment, and that moment, is so amazing, when you saw the album someday, someday where you wearing old specs, lying on the bed, with you grand child ... And you can tell your grand child the stories of yours...
-Stephen- 2011/05/02 0105
Guess what... I think I'm gonna start something like a dairy on this blog.... But not updated it everyday, just gonna write down something that happen to me on a certain day, so that when i got time , i review back my blog, I can still flash back to my memory of the day ... You know , our life is just too short , short enough , that perhaps 60 years, just gone like a blink of eyes...
Many of us didnt realize, that we're missing a lot of our memories...
Today, I took the train to work as usual, and I saw a little boy, sleeping on his father tight , inside the train , and his father is taking care of him... so Nice the moment, that little boy just sit so tight , because he know that his father will protect him , and lying in his father tight is so comfort ... And I tried to flash back to find back some memories of when these thing are happening to me... But I cant ... That because I have grown up now... These things are only happen to me , about 10 ++ years ago.... that time , my father would hug me though the crowd, let me sleep on his arm / tight , and he will hold me up , when I was not tall enough to catch a show where too many people are blocking me ..
I think everyone of us deserved a time / moment to flash back to our life time, but yet... we cant flash back through it all... That why yesterday , i chat with a girl on my facebook, person like to take photo , doesnt mean that the person is 自恋。。。。 It just , you know, photo cant bring you back to the moment , but it can let you flash back what u are doing in that moment, and that moment, is so amazing, when you saw the album someday, someday where you wearing old specs, lying on the bed, with you grand child ... And you can tell your grand child the stories of yours...
-Stephen- 2011/05/02 0105
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