every year..
FEB　14 。。
valentine day...
many people want to celebrate this day...
but i said...
if got heart...
everyday also valentine day...

every 15 of 8month in chinese...
mooncake festival...
some poeple cannot celebrate it..
they are far from hometown...
but i said...
we're looking at the same moon
got heart..
no matter distance...
where we are...
we still can celebrate it

Semester 1 @ Review

Its 9:38 pm of 28/07/2011
Sitting in front of my pc...
pacing back and forth..
clicking here and there..
checking my carry marks...
wondering and dreaming...
Cause tomoro no more class..
only now i know that my first semester pass so fast...

In these 7 weeks..
lot happen to me...
thing that left the most profound in my mind...
the relation between people
it's no true and false...
i still stand on what i say... again...
though sometimes people treat us fake...
but sometimes we also got treat people fake...

somehow i also find myself is such a fake ass guy..
but however..
tat's to make me survive in this new society...
how i being fake ??
being close to my course lecturer? perhaps.. yes i am..
not telling friends about final tips when they absent ? may be i did ...
pretend i didnt know something though i know it ? sometimes, i did so...


but somehow...
what happen the above is not i want to do so....
sometimes i treat u all good...
u all didnt appreciate it...
i try... yes i did...
and finally make me PISS off!!
yeah u did !!
alright... that's make the gap between me and u all..


second thing...
after this semester...
i think i really need to REMANAGER myself again..
my time management, money management ...
seems i really very SUCK in both this field...
nevertheless, my soft heart...
need to make it hard... like a stone...
cannot be so kind to people again anymore...
need so be selfish...
other ppl's thing is their business....
dont matter with me at all...


In a nut shell * （ like write essay gam geh ><"")
we change as our life goes on...
we learn lesson, let it be in the past, to always remind us in the future..
no matter we learn it in a hard way ..
or we learn them too late...

你要记得
我们虽然在地球的不同角落，
但是我们头上顶着同一片蓝​天
早上
我们看着同一个艳阳
晚上
我们望着同一个月亮
每时每刻
我们都踏在这个地球的表面
每分每秒
我
依然那么的想你

Everything Have Two Side

Just now went to kitchen to cook pasta...
For the second time since my university start...
And when I make the decoration for my pasta...
I found out 2 things...
Look at my pasta...
One is "Crying Pasta'
One is "Smiling Pasta'
Actually both are from the same thing..
Both taste the same...
Just the onion leaf make a different...

Like a coin..
It had Head..
It had Tail...
Same thing goes to our life..
We can choose to be happy...
We can choose to be sad...
Just depends on how we face and think about it...

This is written specially for me, myself, Stephen Goh...
and my friends, who sad and stress or whatever...
Just hope we can make it thru the darkness sky..
And be happy like the Smilling Pasta

良心与现实

有时候。。。
在路边吃饭或乘搭火车时候。。。
偶尔会遇上一些跟你我们讨钱的人。。。
今天， 在Wangsa Maju lrt 那里看见一个阿婆。。。
他跟我要钱。。。
我当然。。。
摇摇手就离开了她。。。

但是离开之后。。。
不知道为什么心里有种感觉。。。
怪怪的。。。
之后。。。
我每走一步。。。
都在想。。。
如果他是真的需要钱呢？
给了他，真的帮到她呢?
不给他， 他真的回不到家怎么办?


但是， 现在现实的社会有很多这种骗子。。。
出来找吃。。。
其实家里的环境比我们好几百倍。。。。
就是越来越多这种无赖。。。
害了我们。。。
害得我们觉得不该给钱。。。
他们利用了我们的良心。。。

所以。。。
渐渐地。。。
我们的良心也开始慢慢的形成了一层保护层。。。
我们开始不再那么容易相信别人。。。
我们开始按住了良心。。。
间接地。。。
我们的良心也埋没了。。。

现在比起以前人的生活。。。
实在差太远了。。。
简直就是天与地。。。
以前。。。
如果真的有那么可怜的阿婆。。。
应该有人会带阿婆去吃东西。。。
怕阿婆肚子饿。。。。
然后再帮阿婆找家。。。
或者给钱阿婆搭车。。。
还会等阿婆上了对的巴士才走。。。

可是。。。
现在我呢？？
可悲的。。。
竟然摇摇手就走了。。。。
可能是应为以前我被骗了。。。
那条无赖拿了我的钱。。。
去买烟仔来吸。。。
所以我之后遇到这种情况通常都是不理会的。。。


其实如果那个阿婆真的是很需要的话。。。
我真的不会在意那一两块钱。。。。
反正搭车最多不就是3块钱。。。
但是， 不知道为什么。。。
突然遇到。。。
还是有一种。。。
有一种意念。。。
让我觉得不要去帮他。。。
让我觉得。。。
那3块钱给了会不值得。。。
但是心里其实很想帮。。。
但是过了。。
心里却缺的内疚。。。
这种的我。。。。
好像是没良心吧？？


在良心与现实之间。。。
现在我们往往都按着良心，做个现实的人。。。

< communication >

Communication....
Between people ...
Somehow is just beyond crucial...

I saw a pair of couple argue-ing and fighting in front of me...
Inside old town white coffee...

They both just never stop blaming each other..
Never...
Never stop to find out the false of each other..
Somehow, from I heard from them..
I don't think that's he or she is false..
Is just...
hmmm..Both of them doing the wrong thing at the wrong time....
You know...
Doing the right thing..
And Saying the right thing..
At the right time...
Is just so rarely happen in our life..

In our life...
We never stop regret about thing we didnt do at the past..
We never stop regret about why we didnt speak the words in our mind at the right time...
We never stop regret why we hurt our beloved one..
Some how..
We dont know why we cant do the right thing, speaking the right words at the right time...
And finally we end up like..
Lying on our bed with our pillow pile up..
Thinking what we've done...
And Start REGRET_ing...


Another event ...
Happen to me...
Hmm... not me...
My friends at uni...
Have miscommunication again..
Well...
I still stand on what I've said to she...
No people wrong, No people right...
Just that's how it happen..
Lack of communication ...
Is so funny is ...
I hear from both of my friends...
And yeah...
Again..
They also telling that he other is the wrong...
Haiz...
May be that's is it why many people in the world fighting...
We've never think that we're wrong...
Untill we really really realize it someday...
Someday when we lost something...
Luckily both of them become good at last..
If not, I really dunno how they can continue for another 3 years...

Little Footstep Little Story Of The Day #12

15/07/2011 shinny+ rainy + hazy

Today is friday, and today I have mid term ><"" Yet, like usual, i rarely study... I just study some short note.. Not the thick book I've borrowed library a month ago >.<" And all they way inside the train... All the way... I just thinking how to answer the questions... Argh... Hate this feeling ... At campus,inside class before the lecture come... Only me and another girl... I go beck of the class... and i open my dear's song.. listening and studying alone at a corner... When the lecturer come in... And she saw my course mate reading ... and he ask she to read the exercise that I'm reading... And she said she don't have it.. Lecturer ask me why I didnt borrow she photostat... Haiz... I didn't realize that she's absent on the day of the exercise... I really don't mean it... I'm not such a person... Well... Perhaps sometimes I'm so mean to someone before.. Damm it ... Sure he think me I'm a fake and stingy guy... Yes!! I can feel it !!! And the way he looked at me.. Maybe he start to think chinese is always stingy.. When the test over .. I'm so happy... I know I did it quite well... ^0^ (maybe just wrong 5~8 questions out of 50) And well... I'm become a fake ass guy as well... Such GOOd guy... Whatever... That's the way of life in an University... And it happen to me before.. It will also happen to me in the future.. I need to become selfish... Rather than good.. The fact is when we treat people good.. People never realize it... When we suddenly make a small mistake... People will say we're fake!! People will say we're Hypocritical... Whatever !! Who cares?? I just live on my own... That's all ... On the afternoon... My friend from Perak come to visit me... And i bring him go USJ summit... We've lunch together at Pizza Hut... Happy time always pass very fast... He need to back Perak le...

And on the way to LRT...
at kelana jaya...
I saw an ACCIDENT...
The car was terbalik ><""

And finally when close enough to the scene
God damm it..
They was actually acting..
Just a movie...
Euw!!!
Damm ..
Cause traffic jam...
Waste time...
Local movie no hope de lar....


And at night..
I go out yum cha with friend at prima setapak..
I order a plate...
Again....
Nothing else than chicken steak rice..
But i was WONDERSTRUCK...
Its so tasty...
Haha... worth it... RM5 ...

Wish I could write more for this day..
But that's the ending of this day...