自由自在的感觉

今天的天气阴沉沉的
我却一个人独自地在街道上
走呀走， 走呀走
突然间
刮起了一阵很大的风
像往常一样
我特别喜欢那凉凉的风打在我的脸上
今天
感觉不同的是
在享受那阵风的同时
我闭上我的眼睛

那一瞬间
我觉得好放松
好像所有的烦恼都没了
没有沉重的感觉
觉得整个人好像飘了起来

在慢慢的
我深深地吸了一口气
然后闭气
哇
这种感觉真的很棒
感觉上
犹如脑海都空白了
清净了
虽然一旁的大道交通的声音那么的喧吵
但那一瞬间
我好像没听到任何吵渣的声音


真的
这种感觉很棒
很想经常都能享受这种感觉

every year..
FEB　14 。。
valentine day...
many people want to celebrate this day...
but i said...
if got heart...
everyday also valentine day...

every 15 of 8month in chinese...
mooncake festival...
some poeple cannot celebrate it..
they are far from hometown...
but i said...
we're looking at the same moon
got heart..
no matter distance...
where we are...
we still can celebrate it

Semester 1 @ Review

Its 9:38 pm of 28/07/2011
Sitting in front of my pc...
pacing back and forth..
clicking here and there..
checking my carry marks...
wondering and dreaming...
Cause tomoro no more class..
only now i know that my first semester pass so fast...

In these 7 weeks..
lot happen to me...
thing that left the most profound in my mind...
the relation between people
it's no true and false...
i still stand on what i say... again...
though sometimes people treat us fake...
but sometimes we also got treat people fake...

somehow i also find myself is such a fake ass guy..
but however..
tat's to make me survive in this new society...
how i being fake ??
being close to my course lecturer? perhaps.. yes i am..
not telling friends about final tips when they absent ? may be i did ...
pretend i didnt know something though i know it ? sometimes, i did so...


but somehow...
what happen the above is not i want to do so....
sometimes i treat u all good...
u all didnt appreciate it...
i try... yes i did...
and finally make me PISS off!!
yeah u did !!
alright... that's make the gap between me and u all..


second thing...
after this semester...
i think i really need to REMANAGER myself again..
my time management, money management ...
seems i really very SUCK in both this field...
nevertheless, my soft heart...
need to make it hard... like a stone...
cannot be so kind to people again anymore...
need so be selfish...
other ppl's thing is their business....
dont matter with me at all...


In a nut shell * （ like write essay gam geh ><"")
we change as our life goes on...
we learn lesson, let it be in the past, to always remind us in the future..
no matter we learn it in a hard way ..
or we learn them too late...

你要记得
我们虽然在地球的不同角落，
但是我们头上顶着同一片蓝​天
早上
我们看着同一个艳阳
晚上
我们望着同一个月亮
每时每刻
我们都踏在这个地球的表面
每分每秒
我
依然那么的想你

Everything Have Two Side

Just now went to kitchen to cook pasta...
For the second time since my university start...
And when I make the decoration for my pasta...
I found out 2 things...
Look at my pasta...
One is "Crying Pasta'
One is "Smiling Pasta'
Actually both are from the same thing..
Both taste the same...
Just the onion leaf make a different...

Like a coin..
It had Head..
It had Tail...
Same thing goes to our life..
We can choose to be happy...
We can choose to be sad...
Just depends on how we face and think about it...

This is written specially for me, myself, Stephen Goh...
and my friends, who sad and stress or whatever...
Just hope we can make it thru the darkness sky..
And be happy like the Smilling Pasta

良心与现实

有时候。。。
在路边吃饭或乘搭火车时候。。。
偶尔会遇上一些跟你我们讨钱的人。。。
今天， 在Wangsa Maju lrt 那里看见一个阿婆。。。
他跟我要钱。。。
我当然。。。
摇摇手就离开了她。。。

但是离开之后。。。
不知道为什么心里有种感觉。。。
怪怪的。。。
之后。。。
我每走一步。。。
都在想。。。
如果他是真的需要钱呢？
给了他，真的帮到她呢?
不给他， 他真的回不到家怎么办?


但是， 现在现实的社会有很多这种骗子。。。
出来找吃。。。
其实家里的环境比我们好几百倍。。。。
就是越来越多这种无赖。。。
害了我们。。。
害得我们觉得不该给钱。。。
他们利用了我们的良心。。。

所以。。。
渐渐地。。。
我们的良心也开始慢慢的形成了一层保护层。。。
我们开始不再那么容易相信别人。。。
我们开始按住了良心。。。
间接地。。。
我们的良心也埋没了。。。

现在比起以前人的生活。。。
实在差太远了。。。
简直就是天与地。。。
以前。。。
如果真的有那么可怜的阿婆。。。
应该有人会带阿婆去吃东西。。。
怕阿婆肚子饿。。。。
然后再帮阿婆找家。。。
或者给钱阿婆搭车。。。
还会等阿婆上了对的巴士才走。。。

可是。。。
现在我呢？？
可悲的。。。
竟然摇摇手就走了。。。。
可能是应为以前我被骗了。。。
那条无赖拿了我的钱。。。
去买烟仔来吸。。。
所以我之后遇到这种情况通常都是不理会的。。。


其实如果那个阿婆真的是很需要的话。。。
我真的不会在意那一两块钱。。。。
反正搭车最多不就是3块钱。。。
但是， 不知道为什么。。。
突然遇到。。。
还是有一种。。。
有一种意念。。。
让我觉得不要去帮他。。。
让我觉得。。。
那3块钱给了会不值得。。。
但是心里其实很想帮。。。
但是过了。。
心里却缺的内疚。。。
这种的我。。。。
好像是没良心吧？？


在良心与现实之间。。。
现在我们往往都按着良心，做个现实的人。。。

< communication >

Communication....
Between people ...
Somehow is just beyond crucial...

I saw a pair of couple argue-ing and fighting in front of me...
Inside old town white coffee...

They both just never stop blaming each other..
Never...
Never stop to find out the false of each other..
Somehow, from I heard from them..
I don't think that's he or she is false..
Is just...
hmmm..Both of them doing the wrong thing at the wrong time....
You know...
Doing the right thing..
And Saying the right thing..
At the right time...
Is just so rarely happen in our life..

In our life...
We never stop regret about thing we didnt do at the past..
We never stop regret about why we didnt speak the words in our mind at the right time...
We never stop regret why we hurt our beloved one..
Some how..
We dont know why we cant do the right thing, speaking the right words at the right time...
And finally we end up like..
Lying on our bed with our pillow pile up..
Thinking what we've done...
And Start REGRET_ing...


Another event ...
Happen to me...
Hmm... not me...
My friends at uni...
Have miscommunication again..
Well...
I still stand on what I've said to she...
No people wrong, No people right...
Just that's how it happen..
Lack of communication ...
Is so funny is ...
I hear from both of my friends...
And yeah...
Again..
They also telling that he other is the wrong...
Haiz...
May be that's is it why many people in the world fighting...
We've never think that we're wrong...
Untill we really really realize it someday...
Someday when we lost something...
Luckily both of them become good at last..
If not, I really dunno how they can continue for another 3 years...